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§ March 3rd, 2010 § Filed under Chapter 73: The End of the Beginning § Tagged , , , , § No Comments

Perfection does not always appear in perfect form to the eye. An aging white bud sits ready to unfold. What beauty waits folded in its soul? What beauty waits folded in yours? Your now awaits. It is time to bloom.

            After 72 chapters reliving, reviewing and integrating the teachings of my Spirit Guide, See Do, I have come full circle.

               Four-and-a-half years ago, I leaned back and began a journey. I was under enormous stress and was looking for a clearer head and a little relief. The reflexology treatment created a deeply relaxed yet energized state in me. And S’s guided visualization sent my mind and spirit right to the edge of my here and now.

               In this new, at once charged and serene state, my internal turmoil was discharged completely and I came into harmony with a resonance that flowed up through the soul-spirit fabric, reaching my conscious-self as a seemingly human and independent presence, a being, a spirit, who introduced himself as my Spirit Guide, See Do.

               My emotional walls crumbled. Tears flowed as I began the conversation with See Do and my whole spirit felt amazement and awe.

               One night not long ago, in early January of this year, after completing Chapter 72, which I thought would be the final chapter, I awoke abruptly around three a.m. in a very similar state. My face was wet and my mind was racing, grappling with a new idea, a new realization. But it didn’t feel like I had had fresh contact with See Do. There was no conversation or lesson. There was just a single idea coalescing in front of me.

               At that moment, it all became clear. Everything was now integrated into one. And integrated into me.

               The unasked questions were answered. See Do came from deep in me. His apparent presence was my conscious mind’s only way to integrate the resonances of the spirit-fabric that I had come into alignment with. Here was a glimpse of the one thing. Not so different from the glimpses we get everyday with every spirit we encounter. But here, with See Do, it was stripped bare of the artifice of a conscious-self and completely open to contact with the conscious me. And he told me what I now needed to know. He told me that I needed to write. And then he told me much, much more. Almost all of which is contained in the chapters of this blog.

               Here was an understanding of the fully integrated universe pouring through us, creating a perfect reflection of our inner beings and spirits. Spirits that are in turn all instantly realized states of the same spirit energy – there is only one thing.

               Everything See Do “said” to me was now integrated into one idea, a singular realization, that contained all the infinite complexities of our temporal reality. All of Time and Space. I could feel the light of it within me. I could see its power in this moment. I could see that it, in fact, was this moment. I could see the effect of my conscious-self diffusing and distorting the light. I could also understand the final light that draws us at the end of life.

               I could sense the silhouetted figure of See Do moving toward that light, bidding me goodbye, or hello, as he stepped back into a state of full integration with everything that is inside of my conscious-spirit-self.

               It would now be for me to see and to do. To understand the teachings, to see the light flowing through me. To work to keep it a light of positive and loving color. To understand that the world I face is all my inner spirit-soul-self reflection. To calm my conscious-self. To love. To reach out to my spirit-soul-self , in my own way, to understand, to commune, and to work to make a better world in the here and now. After all, it is all we’ll ever have.

               And there is work to do.

               Thank you.

               I leave you with a poem I recently found that helps me see how others certainly have heard the same messages, and told similar stories. The poem is “That Lives In Us” by Rumi, translated by Daniel Ladinsky:

If you put your hands on this oar with me,

they will never harm another, and they will come to find

they hold everything you want.


If you put your hands on this oar with me, they would no longer

lift anything to your

mouth that might wound your precious land –

that sacred earth that is

your body.


If you put your soul against this oar with me,

the power that made the universe will enter your sinew

from a source not outside your limbs, but from a holy realm

that lives in us.


Exuberant is existence, time a husk.

When the moment cracks open, ecstacy leaps out and devours space;

love goes mad with the blessings, like my words give.


Why lay yourself on the torturer’s rack of the past and future?

The mind that tries to shape tomorrow beyond its capacities

will find no rest.


Be kind to yourself, dear – to our innocent follies.

Forget any sounds or touch you knew that did not help you dance.

You will come to see that all evolves us.


If you put your heart against the earth with me, in serving

every creature, our Beloved will enter you from our sacred realm

and we will be, we will be

so happy.


               (Copyright David Ladinsky, Penguin Compass 2002)


Thank you. 

               [ This chapter concludes my planned writing on my See Do experience. I hope you have enjoyed the journey. I certainly have. Of course, these teachings may open up many new spiritual doors and there is much more to talk about. If you would like to see more, please let me know. I would love to hear from you.

               Please feel free to contact me at I would love to hear your thoughts on these teachings. You can help me understand what I might be able to add with future posts. Thank you.]